I’m a mom to a wonderful, happy, joyful, amazing little boy. He is currently 9 months old, it is such a fun age where he is learning everyday and growing like a weed. He is my pride and joy. I am beyond proud to be his mom. I don’t want anyone to get the wrong idea..I love my son and I love spending all day everyday with him, I would not change it for the world! But sometimes I can’t help but feel lonely. Being on mat leave is lonely.
When I was pregnant everyone would talk about the joy of having a baby and they were so excited for you. No one ever told me the struggle of being alone so often. The isolation. The sadness. The anxiety. The feeling of being so overwhelmed. Mom guilt. All these new emotions that I can’t even being to explain to my friends and family because they will not understand.
Some days I don’t interact with anyone, other then my baby and husband. It’s only human nature that I want to feel connected to others. But being on mat leave, being a new mom, in the middle of a pandemic is just a different than anyone I have in my life. I’ve even lost some friends due to having a baby.
That’s crazy to me. I lost friends because I had a baby. The most amazing special thing in my whole life was having a baby and I lost really good friends because of it. I wouldn’t change that if they don’t understand I don’t want them in my life, but how sad that some thing that brings me so much joy could also make people not want to be my friend anymore?
I love my son and would do anything in the world for him but I am lonely.
The Lonely Mom 