It’s been days since I’ve talk to any of my friends. No one reaches out to me, I have to message them first. Maybe it’s because I’m a new mom and everyone thinks I’m sooooo busy. I’m not. Maybe it’s because whenever they asked me to do something I have to run it by my husband. My life isn’t like there’s anymore. I don’t do things for myself because I can’t. I am no longer my #1 priority. I have this perfect little human who’s counting on me. And don’t even get me started on the separation anxiety I feel everytime I leave. Whether it be 10 minutes or 2 hours, I don’t enjoy myself when he’s with me. But if I were to bring him with me, I have this overwhelming feeling. Not to mention I have to pack up half my house. I’m constantly at battle with myself.
I have to go back to work in a month. What I’ve been longing for, social interaction. But I am absolutely dreading it. No one can take care of him the way I can, no one knows what he needs like I do. The constant what if‘s run through my mind. He’s my baby and I protect him like no other. I love him more then I ever thought imaginable. But I can’t help but miss my old life
Will this ever go away? Will I ever go back to how I was before? Will I ever feel normal again?
The Lonely Mom 